As Life goes on

2009-09-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

As life goes on, we have to move on.
I have long decided to move on with life, carrying a heavy burden that would never leave me.
I feel depressed, I feel sad, I feel difficult.
This had been a very rough year for me. 2009 was a difficult year.
2 emotional breakdowns, I barely passed the two of them.
Things may turn out to be better, but there are still damages done.

I had long wanted to give up, but I knew i cant.
There are people supporting me. If I fall, they fall.
I thought things were going well for me. I thought it was.
But once memories flows back, I feel I had once again returned to the past.
It sucks truly. But, I just want to have the life that I once enjoyed.
The blemished teenage hood tainted my life.
It changed my colorful sky to a dark sky.
As I looked into the dark sky, memories starts to flow once again.
I had never let go of her, never once.
I had said it millions of time I had forgotten her, but there was never once i managed to let it go fully.
I reckon that I would be able to do so, but time and again , I failed. And I don't wish to try again.
I don't pray for the trust to come back, I don't pray that we would be the same.
I don't wish for anything or should I say I don't even know what I want.
I just feel the emptiness inside.

Ahgong
08/09/2009
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Its Not Over - Secondhand Serenade

2009-09-07T08:11:00.001-07:00

then no grand son in law de

2009-09-07T08:06:00.001-07:00

FIRST POST. hello ppl. ah gong is here to post!
hahas. ah gong love all my nuer and grandnuer! hohoho!

THF

As Life goes on